Somehow

Somehow with out asking for much and without thinking much about it I have managed t get social time and swim time ans such all worked out for the next week.
Tomorrow I will got to Can't Stop the Serenity, Monday the kids have no camp but I have the day off to be with them. Tuesday I will go to APT for Blythe Spirit, And Thursday Night I will get to see the midnight showing of Harry Potter I have the day after off. Even in the bigger picture H will be able to attend her swim team picnic with out rearranging everything as it just happens to be in the same park as G's Baseball Game/Practice. I just have to ge stuff ready for it so they can grab and go. I hope that I can attend. The ladies have been so good to us this summer.

I do like m job the people are great the hours are not so good as I don't get to see G's Baseball and I am missing 3 of H's swim meets this summer. I have to keep telling myself that there are many more to come. I got to spend some time with G last night but I feel like I am missing out on time with him a lot lately.  I guess that is some of the trouble with working odd hours with kids at home.

Working Holidays

We had no plans today. Most things were planned for Saturday and Sunday. I was lucky enough to be off on Saturday so I could do things with friends.

This morning was pretty hard. G had a tough night and was not his happiest this morning. He was clingy and wanting me to stay home. He actually said "Why do you have to work, I don't like it when you work"  I have to believe that he was just talking about today and days like it where he is at home and I am not. But since this has come up before It really is very hard for me to take.


The nice thing about working today was that the store closed at 6:00 so I was on my way home by 6:30. We all had dinner together. It would have been nicer if we had a functional dining room.
So G is getting in the tub right now and H is on the computer playing a game. B is helping G. Fireworks are echoing in the neighborhood.
We still don't have a working washing machine. Letting B have that responsibility was not my best idea. 
It is time for bed. But since I haven't mentione it here i a while here is the list of books I have been recommending on Facebook.

Scheduling

Ug trying to get things done just isn't working well and I seem to be getting crabby.

Quick back ground: I haven't worked full time since March of 2008. (unless you count the in home child care that I did the summer of 2008) H started swimming in the fall of 2008. Since March of 2008 my kids and husband have had a lot of me to rely on for getting things like food shopping and Laundry and forms done.

So lets see what has happened with trying to get used to new schedules this past month. May 23rd Holly's Swimming rec team started up. so we needed to plan what team what night. At the same time with her other team there was a coaching change. We just get used to that and school ends on June 10th. Our first of the every Saturday swim meets starts on the 11th followed by a trip to the American Player's Theater that night.  The next week brings time changes for H's swimming practices and the kids home for the week. I interview and accept my current job on Wednesday June 15th, I start work on Friday. We have a swim meet as per the new usual on Saturday and on Sunday with our usual game group we plan on changes to accommodate my schedule. Monday starts with an 8 hour day at work for me, the kids start Day camp and Both of H's Swim teams change schedules.

My schedule is not flexible and is not set in stone. But camp it and the Swim teams are Bill has a little flexibility.

Week one had lots to be desired getting people to the right places at the right time (at least I did for work and the kids made the bus to camp). H had a teenage melt down on Friday.  G had his Sunday morning and I had mine some where in the wee hours of Saturday Morning and it continued after everyone else left for the swim meet.

I have been waiting for B to have one because even the house seems to be having one. Both the Dish washer and the clothes washer broke Sunday/Monday. These are two appliances it is hard to live with out. So tonight I had to go to the laundromat.  Not a huge fan, One cannot tuck a 6 year old in to bed while one is at the laundromat (he was with me and no one was home) One can't wash dishes, pick up toys, mop and if you forget your computer...Blog. Well the dryer is working at home so I have the wet to damp stuff drying. I think I'll have to check on it and get to bed soon.

Saturday

Wow that week just flew by.

Wednesday particularly flew as I worked 10-6 and then took H to swim at different pool (a 50m pool downtown at the universtiy) B and G cam to drop her off before going to Baseball.
We left the pool at 9 but had to walk to parking then it was a 30 minute drive home with a stop for frosties and fries from Wendy's

This meant we got home close to midnight.

I was off Thursday and Friday. They were mad run around days doing all that I did in a full week in two days plus the normal things and I helped a friend out with watching her youngest while she is recovered from major surgery.

Normally I would be watching H swim right now. but I am a little stressed about working the weekend and this disrupted my sleep at 3AM so I though t that it was better to nap at home before I worked 2-10 than try to survive a 15 hour day. I upsets me that I have in this case chosen work over my kids. I am trying to fly it through my brain at choosing health but that isn't working I took this job knowing I would be working a ton of weekends.

Beside skipping the swimming this morning I am missing out on a birthday gathering that H is included in and possibly a Brunch tomorrow and then the usual Sunday game night is tweaked an possibly rearranged because of me, and I really doubt I will feel like playing after that. I am Mad about all of this and I don't know how to direct the anger. I knew what I was doing agreeing to this avaibility, B knew too. But I am worried that there will be damage to the fabric of the family that won't iron out easily.

Tuesday Morning

I have 15 minutes before I have to go 15 minutes to get shoes and socks on. 15 minutes of quite except for the swish like roar of the dish washer, 15 minutes to assess my hair, 15 minutes to decide if the shirt is too tight. I have done dishes, laundry and made banana muffins this morning. I took the kids to their bus for camp (day camp). G was clingy and sad, claimed he was tired. Then I had a full hour at home alone before now (if the bus was on time it would have been longer).
 I put 2 of H's swim bags together ready if she needs to go to swim practice fast (4:15 instead of 8:30)

Well I now have 10 minutes I think I'll use that time on my appearance.

Tired

I left before Bill and the kids. I had to be at work at 8:55 and their bus was not due until 9:00 and I knew it would be late it was the first day. More than half way there (I needed to experiment on a route because of the dreaded road construction). I realized I hadn't really said good-bye to any of my family.

I shelved some books, ran the register, stickered some cd's, ran the register, sleeved some cd's, ran the register, filed some cd's, and got to know some of my co-workers. I did this all standing (with occasional bouts of kneeling for shelving and filing. My Boss spent a great deal of time with me today. At one point he mentioned about at Christmas what we get from the company. I am not supposed to be with them that long. But maybe he was hinting. He did complement me twice today.

I got home after G left for baseball. I had a nice chat with H and read about the camp day. On request of a friend and my cousin i am putting a daily book recommendation on face book today's is "The History of Farting". It's the book that has been on the counter as a impulse buy I have sold a few. always with a chuckle from the buyer.

H is swimming tonight (and every night) and I get the joy of putting G to bed I hope I don't fall asleep on him. I'd like to chat with B before I fall asleep since he and Holly won't be back until about 10:30 that may not happen.

Back to work

I wasn't completely prepared on Friday.
Oh don't get me wrong I brought my 'A' game I absorbed a lot. I learned a lot. It isn't rocket science and I will have no problem getting things done fast. I just wasn't sure that I was going to work all day and I did the first half was just paper work and general policy stuff. The last four hours or so was working the register and I was on my feet the whole time. At a few minutes before 5 I squatted down and discovered How sore my legs were and how much it felt good to make that movement.

Tomorrow Monday is my first full day on the register. Only 7 hours with a one hour lunch, Did I mention that it is a paid lunch on top of the "bad bed" (only 4 more nights til new bed) I figure that I may be even more tired than I was when I got home on Friday.

On top of that all sorts of new things start for the family tomorrow. The kids start summer day camps and G starts baseball. It will make for a crazy week and in a way I am dreading it I am not sure I will make it through. I guess we will make it work it is what B keeps saying but more and more has fallen to me in the last 3 years since I last worked full time and since then H has started swimming and G started school and has gotten to have some harder behavior problems.

It will be a tough 16 weeks. Well In order to get it going I better get to bed but Laundry need to get done and I need to make sure the kids get in bed. I hope to be able to write more of this  this week but I feel that it may fall by the way side.